Hi everyone! It has been a while.
I re-vamped my site, AGAIN…I can be the most indecisive person you will ever meet. But I am pleased to say that I am finally happy with it. I want to get into the habit of blogging more. I really do love it because it is such a good outlet for me, and I like to think that it may just help others, too. However, my own mental blocks always get in the way. Either I have a lack of creative juices flowing, or I think, “why would anyone even care what I have to say…?” That, I know, is my total lack of self-confidence and anxious personality rearing it’s ugly head. It tends to do that, but I am a work in progress.
Now, I know a while ago I wrote about social media and how I deleted my IG. I want to bring this up, because I actually re-created a new IG account. After a couple month break, I decided to bring that platform back into my life. The break was so nice, a breath of fresh air! The interesting thing though, is that I went from taking pictures like crazy, to taking none at all. I think this break from social media was much needed, but I want to try to bring balance back into my life. I firmly believe that it IS possible to have social media accounts without going overboard, without it controlling and taking over your life, without it being this negative force that it turned into for me. I know my personality. I understand the disorders that I have. I am aware of my flaws. Instead of completely erasing IG from my life, I realized that instead, I can do things differently. I can find a healthy balance. It does not have to be all or nothing. Finding balance is something I need to work on in every aspect of my life, and I think I am strong enough and able to achieve this healthy balance when it comes to social media. Speaking of balance, my previous blog was @bearfindingbalance. In case you have not noticed, I changed my domain name and main name of my website. Though balance will always be one of my major themes and something that I strive for in my life, I thought @blackbirdflyyy was more appropriate at this time. There is a little story and a lot of meaning behind why I chose that name, but that is for another post – I want this to just be an update on all the changes I am doing!
Anyway, I hope you will follow along in my journey. There will be more posts to come so stay tuned. There is a lot going on in my life right now, especially health wise and school wise. If you want to learn a little more about that, please visit my IG account. I am starting my Instagram account from the ground up, and I will not stress about how many followers I have. I show me: the good, bad, and sometimes even ugly. But despite my faults, I know I have a lot to offer. I have a lot to learn from others as well. My focus for my IG account, AND this blog, is to create a positive space to give and receive support, make connections, and document the major happenings of my life, capture the good (and sometimes the difficult) through pictures and writing, and hopefully I can help others along the way. I will not get so wrapped up in these accounts where I feel the need to scroll, the need to take the perfect pictures to the point where it takes me out of the moment, because I want to be in each and every moment. I want to feel all the feels, and enjoy every second of this crazy ride.